"It hurts wen i make him a priority but i am juz an option" .......
Its oready hard for me to do dis and yet im forcing myslf to do dis bcz i noe its best for both me n him ..Well actuali its best for me but im nt sure abt him ..Bt its freaking hard for me to do dis decision dat i have made ..Dont ask me y coz i have no answer for dat ..Its all bcz of dis heart dat have created dis feeling and i have to leave evryting now ..Its soo damn hard for me to do dis!!! ..But i noe i have to ..Every single second im tinking bout dis ting and wondering wad im doing now is worth it ..Is he even worth it for me ..Sometyms my answer is yes but sometyms its a definite NO ..I cant even concentrate on studying for my final paper and cant tink clear wen im doing my exam ..Dats wen the confusion comes and its driving me crazy ..It absolutely make me go blank in my mind ..And trust me he's not even of any help to ease dis feeling ..In fact he's making it worse by his doings!! ..Wad am i to do ..Oh god please help me to solve dis ting in me ..Its juz me ..Its all about the confused me ..