My confessions ..

I cant believe dat he said dat .. How can i make the frst move in dis relationship wen im juz a gurl ..He's the guy soo he shld make the frst move ..If he sees dat im nt msgng him or called him he can actuali msg me frst or cll me frst ..Dats wad a guy shld do ryte ..How can i make the frst move ..Might as well i be the guy and him being the gurl ryte ..Its fine wif me if im the one who's owaes msgng him frst, calling him frst, mayb asking him out ..Hmm mayb asking him out wuld be the sumting i dont dare to do ..But msgng n calling are the tings dat i usually do ..But how can he say dat we have not been contacting each oder lately but the fact is he's bz ..I dont wana disturb him in his bz schedule cz i dont wan him to find me a pest, pestering him and annoying him wen he's got soo much tings to do ..Cz i dont lyk to msg or talk to sumone who finds me irritating ..Eventually he wont be sincere to entertain me ..I can contact him evryday if he wans to but its weder he have the tym to entertain me or nt ..I dont noe wad else i shld do ..Yes i wan dis relationship to go on forward but if im owaes the one making the frst move den he might find me desperate ..Not dat im saying im desperate for dis relationship ..Im not ..But since we are getting to noe each oder its gud dat we can move on to the next level ..Mayb he's lyk dat bcz he's been vry bz wif his wrk and sum tings in his lyf ..Well i undrstnd dat ..Evrybody have their own schedule ..It depends on weder they are too bz or too free ..For him he's too bz but for me im too free ..Too free till i dont noe wad to do wif my lyf ..Dats y i can onli wait for him ..If im too bz i tink i juz cant b bothered wif dis relationship and juz do sumting better wif my life ..But im not lyk dat ..Im willing to wait for him ..Evn if it takes for him to finish his NS cz i tink NS is the ting dats holding him back ..Filling his free tym ..Well dats all dat i manage to do ..To wait ..My frends adviced me to juz move on but im not ready yet to move on ...I still wana go on wif dis ting cz i wana noe wads the ending gonna be .Lyk a fairytale ..Sumhw dis fairytale might have a hapi or sad ending ..Hopefully it is a hapi ending ..Sumhw hru all those sleepless nights tinking of him, dreaming of him, i got the feeling dat dis relationship might juz work btwn us but it needs tym to make it happen ...