"It hurts wen i make him a priority but i am juz an option" .......
Its oready hard for me to do dis and yet im forcing myslf to do dis bcz i noe its best for both me n him ..Well actuali its best for me but im nt sure abt him ..Bt its freaking hard for me to do dis decision dat i have made ..Dont ask me y coz i have no answer for dat ..Its all bcz of dis heart dat have created dis feeling and i have to leave evryting now ..Its soo damn hard for me to do dis!!! ..But i noe i have to ..Every single second im tinking bout dis ting and wondering wad im doing now is worth it ..Is he even worth it for me ..Sometyms my answer is yes but sometyms its a definite NO ..I cant even concentrate on studying for my final paper and cant tink clear wen im doing my exam ..Dats wen the confusion comes and its driving me crazy ..It absolutely make me go blank in my mind ..And trust me he's not even of any help to ease dis feeling ..In fact he's making it worse by his doings!! ..Wad am i to do ..Oh god please help me to solve dis ting in me ..Its juz me ..Its all about the confused me ..

Its easy for u to ask me to do tings dat's reali hard for me to do ..Yes i've heard soo much truth about him frm u and it cums to an evaluation dat he's a jerk doing those kinda tings to me ..But no matter wad i dont have the guts to do wad u asked me to do my frend ..I dont noe y im lyk dis but its juz me ..I juz dont have the guts, the heart to be harsh on him, scolding him and making an embarrassment out of myslf ..Yes i am a fool for not dumping him but i need tym to get dis fact in me ..I have my own way on how to settle dis ting myslf ..But at tyms wen i tink about it wad u say is true ..Evryting dat u say is true ..I muz dump him and juz frgt abt him cz i deserve sumone better who appreciates me more ..But the truth is i cant ..I cant juz dump him and frgts about him and i dont noe y ..Ppl juz dont undrstnd wad im going thru ..Ppl can juz give me advices, ways for me to settle dis ting but their advices and ways for me to settle dis ting are juz too harsh and i cant do those harsh tings ..Call me a fool, call me a stupid fool but i aint doing it coz my ways to settle tings are juz way too lenient den dat .. :'((

Saying "I love you" is a hard thing to do. You might be worried if you are really expressing your true feelings or if you are being pressured into it. Everyone has their own time when they think that it is appropriate to say I love you. There is no right or wrong time. However, it is hurtful when an individual makes herself vulnerable and says, I love you, and her words are not returned. Sometimes it may be a simple act of courtesy to return the sentiment. On the other hand you may be setting her up for false expectations about the potential for a relationship.

All alone!!!

Today im all alone at home ..Soo bored ..Well actuali i got lots of tings to do especially studying but sumhw i cant study at all in dis kinda situation ..Juz not in the mood to do anyting but juz laze arnd at home ..But i noe i need to study coz exams is lyk wad a few days away ..Hmm we'll juz see tmrw if the mood will ever arrive ...