Moving on ....

I guess its tym fr me to move on wif my lyf ..Moving on and heading dis lyf alone w/o the sumone beside me animre ..Bt hw am i suppose to move on if im still having the past in me? ..Well den dat means dat im nt moving on ryte? ..Im trying my best to push evryting away, throwing all my past away frm my lyf bt i simply cant ..Evrytym i see the pictures and thought bck about evryting dat we had went thru tgt, it makes it more harder for me to leave my past ..Its even harder for me to move on w/o the sumone ..Im still hoping for, i dont noe, mayb for me to reach the star i guess ..Is it possible? ..i dnt noe ..Dats wad im feeling ryte now ..I feel dat im waiting for me to reach the star(which is impossible) ..I wana move on bt i feel dat ryte dwn in my heart der is sumting dats stopping me frm moving on ..Cz i have the feeling dat if i moved on i will regret in future bcz im making a great mistake ..I dont wan any regrets in future ..Dats y i dont noe weder i shld move on or shld i still wait ..I nd the answer asap cz i cant b living in dis kinda situation ..Im lyk 2 different person in my lyf ryte nw ..In skul im the hapi me ..I hid my problems frm evryone wif my smile and laughter ..Bt wen im at home den the real me emerged ..Im totally down and i cant evn smile or laugh ..Bcz evrytym at home, im alone in one corner, i strt to tink of evryting dat has happened to me ..I dont noe weder wad i did all dis while is juz a mistake ..Did he juz drop by in my lyf and now he have to go away, far far away frm me?? ..I dont noe ..All i can do now is i guess juz wait for my future to cum and get me instead of me running aftr my future ..

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Help me pleaseeee!!

Wer is he? ..Why didnt he reply my msg? ..Why didnt he msg me dis whole wk? ..I feel soo lonely wen my fone's nt ringing wif him msgng me ..I feel dat i've been avoided or neglected ..Am i having wild imaginations again? ..Bcz being wif him is the mst peaceful ting i evr experienced ..Bt wen tings hppn lyk dis im soo nt at ease ..My heart juz keep worrying ..And i keep having wild imaginations ..Guess im having problem wif my ownself ..Im having wild imaginations but the fact is he's nt lyk dat ..He's way better den my imagination ..Wad am i to do to cntrl my imagination? ..A frend said to me its bcz of the insecureness dat i feel deep inside ..But hw to chnge my insecureness to the sense of secureness? ..Hw to make myslf stop having wild imaginations? ..Bcz i believe my wild imaginations will kill me one day ..Sumbody HELP me!!!!

Evryting's bck to nrml lyk hw i wanted it ..

"I dont wan to lose a frend lyk u ..U are the sparkle ..Owaes cheerful and fun to be wif.."
Those are the words used dat touches my heart ..Thnx my frend ..I reali regret fr all dat happened ..
Alhamdullilah evryting is bck to nrml ..Sumhw the talk frm a frend made me realise dat my actions hurt another frend without me realising ..Its selfish of me to juz blame the situation bcz i didnt make the move frst to correct the situation ..But evryting nw is much and way better bcz i made the choice to do sumting so dat the situation doesnt remain as tense as it was dis 2 whole weeks ..Im soo glad dat my bdae month didnt turn out to be a vry sad and hurtful one bcz i lost a frend ..Instead i tink dat dis is the best bdae month dat i get out of my 17yrs of living bcz i tot i lost a frend but the fact is she's owaes der fr me thru my hardships ..I reali regretted fr saying such nasty tings about her ..I am such a jerk ..Anger juz made me say dat ..Simply cant cntrl my hypothalamus ..But nw im controlling my hypothalamus soo as i wont hurt anyone animre in future ..Enough wif dis disastrous ting dat happened to me dis november ..I dont wan disastrous ting to happen animre particularly on november ..Glad dat i can chnge frm disastrous to a joyful november ..Simply the touch frm her yday wen we were taking pic made me ease and warms my heart ..Makes me realise dat i made a terrible mistake and i shld do sumting to correct my mistakes ..Still dis is a learning experience fr me ..To nt follow my hypothalamus but using brain to control the situation ..By den i guess i wont b facing any of these problems ..