If you happen to bump into those bitches dat ruins ur lyf, dont ever look down or try to hide .. In fact, owaes look up, stare at them, give a sinister smile, roll ur eyes and walk away wif an attitude .. Let dem noe no matter wad fucked up shit dey did or say previously, it doesnt intimidates u and dat you are never afraid to face up to dem and tell dem off dat you are much happier in lyf without dem and dat u have won the battle ..


Soo bitches .. Juz wait for dat day ..

Wen she noes she's in deep trouble, she wans my boyfrend to be in dis fucked up situation juz as she is in .. And wen my boyfrend surrenders coz it has noting to do wif him animore, she called him GAY! ..  And even threatens him dat she will drag him along to court if she got summoned for not paying the bills .. Hah! .. Stupid dumbass woman! .. U wan dat laptop soo much ryte .. Too hard up wif it .. Cz its fuckingly under ur NAME .. Soo since its fuckingly under ur NAME and u got dat laptop and broadband bck in ur hands and im sure u'r fucking satisfied wif it .. Soo .. Its tym to take up dat responsibility of paying the overdue amount urself .. And if u got into trouble, u wnt be able to even drag my boyfrend along cz its fuckingly undr ur FUCKING NAME!! .. Hahaha .. Dont play wif singapore's law .. If its undr ur name its undr ur name .. Nobody else will be dragged along .. Serves u ryte for being soo greedy .. Dis is wad u get fr being too greedy wif tings dat u wnt even be able to brng along into ur grave wen u die .. Or maybe if u wan to u can bring it along .. Who noes dat laptop can help u answer all questions asked .. Since u'r soo hard up wif ur tings .. HAHAHA! ..


"Dont drag him in ur own mess .. U wan YOUR TINGS bck nw soo be fucking responsible for ur OWN tings! .."

Im owaes having dreams of my late father .. Yesterday i dreamt dat he was suddenly alive back .. He talked to me bout sumting .. We chatted(which i cant remember wad), and den we hugged .. And the only ting i remembered him saying was "I know how much u miss me" .. And we hugged tightly .. And den i woke up from my sleep ..


Soo i was sharing dis to my boyfrend juz now .. At first i was okae wif telling him all dis .. Suddenly my feelings got mixed up and i teared ryte der infrnt of him .. He tried to stop me from crying, consoling me, wiping my tears .. But sumhw dat juz made me cry more .. Hah! .. I cant help it! .. I juz need to cry it all out .. At least i feel much better aftr dat .. But i noe by me crying it juz tears him down .. It broke his heart into million pieces .. Soo he managed to finally distract me by talking bout sumting else and made me laugh .. Hah! .. But its great to noe i have him around to share my happiness and my grieves wif .. At least im no longer alone ryte now if im feeling down .. I got him to hear me out, cry wif me, laugh wif me, go thru everyday shit in lyf wif me .. Simply enjoying his company wif me ryte now ..

"Dalam sepi terkenang diri mu
Ku sendiri mengharung rindu
Kau berjanji sehidup semati
Tinggal janji mu kau bawa bersama

Kau biarkan diri ku melara
Mengemis cinta suci dari mu
Apa daya aku jatuh cinta
Jatuh hati kepada yang tak sudi

Mengapakah aku kau dustai
Kasih suci telah kau khianati
Manis kata hanyalah di bibir
Meranalah jiwaku

Mengapakah kau simpan dendam mu
Kasih dulu tertanam di kalbu
Hingga aku menjadi mangsanya
Kau samakan dirinya
Dengan kasih dan sayang ku

Cuba kau rasakan nya
Apa yang telah aku merasainya
Kasih telah ku beri tidak kau menghargai
Impian hati ini hancur tidak tercari
Pergi sayang pergi
Tinggalkan aku sendiri

Ku... diusik kenangan bersama mu
Ku... dibuai rindu semalam"


He actually teared wen he heard dis song wen i left him previously .. Hw bad i felt wen he ask me to hear dis song and really undrstnd the lyrics to dis song .. N wen im done wif it he told me he cried hard wen he heard dis song .. :'(

"Hadirnya dirimu berikan suasana baru
Kau mampu tenangkan aku 
Di saat risau dalam hatiku
Lembutnya sikapmu meluluhkan hati ini
Terbuai aku lena oleh dirimu
Oleh dirimu


Jantung pun bergetar saat engkau ada di dekatku 
Mungkinkah diriku telah jatuh cinta pada dirimu
Sebisa diriku mencoba untuk melupakanmu
Namun ku tak bisa
Kau pun selalu ada dalam hatiku


Dan biarkan semua mengalir apa adanya
Ku yakin kau pun fahami perasaanku, perasaanku"

Cinta hatiku hanya dikau seorang wahai kekasih ku .. Tiada siapa yang dapat menggantikan tempatmu di hatiku .. Dan begitu juga dengan kamu .. Tiada siapa yang dapat menggantikan tempatku di hatimu .. Walaupun seseorang itu telah menggadai separuh nyawanya untuk melahirkan seseorang di dunia ini .. Namun hanya aku cinta pertamamu dan hanya aku juga lah yang kamu cintai dengan sepenuh hati walaupun telah bersamanya dahulu .. Dan aku, walaupun pernah meninggalkanmu, namun kamu tidak pernah lenyap di dalam hatiku .. Namamu akan sentiasa bertahta di dalam hatiku ini .. Walaupun hatiku ini sekecil genggaman tanganku namun tempat unutkmu di hatiku seluas lautan yang penuh dengan gelora cinta .. 

"Baby i love u, u are my life .. The happiest moments weren't complete if u weren't by my side .. U're my relation & connection to the sun .. Wif u next to me der's no darkness i can't overcome .. U are my raindrops, i am the seed .. Wif u & god who's the sunlight i'll bloom & grow so beautifully .. Baby i'm so proud, proud to be your girl .. U make the confusion go all away from dis cold & mixed up world .. I am in love wif u, u set me free .. I can't do dis ting called life without u here wif me .. Cause i'm dangerously in love wif u, i'll never leave .. Juz keep loving me the way i love u loving me .. And i know u love me, love me for who i am .. Cause years before i became who i am baby u were my man .. I know it ain't easy, easy loving me .. I appreciate the love & dedication frm u to me .. Later on in my destiny i see myself having ur child .. I see myself being ur wife & i see my whole future in ur eyes .. Thought of all my love for u sometimes makes me wana cry .. Realise my blessings i'm grateful to have u by my side .. Evrytime i see ur face my heart smiles .. It feels so good it hurts sometimes .. Created in dis world to love, to hold, to feel, to live u .. Dangerously in love .."


Dis lyric was given to him on our 2nd mth .. He was awed wen he frst heard dis song & wen he saw dis lyric written by me on a piece of paper n was pasted on sumting dat i gave him today as a present, he was awed again .. Der lies our memories tgt .. And the greatest ting to noe he put it on his dressing table & so evry mrng wen he wakes up frm his sleep the frst ting he will see is the present dat i gave him .. Dat'll remind him of us each time he wakes up frm his sleep ..
Loving u owaes my beloved boyfrend .. Noting's gonna chnge dat ..

"Di dalam sekelip mata

Kau katakan kepadaku

Diri ini bukan lagi milikmu

Tidakku menyedari

Hatimu milik yang lain 

Biarkan ku sepi seorang diri

Oh kekasih

Tiada manis kata

Dapat ku lafazkan untukmu

Hanya sekadar doa 

Moga sentiasa bahagia

Hanya untukmu kekasihku oh Nurhafezah

Mahkota cintaku di hatimu milikku sahaja

Tetapi mengapa cinta ini hanya sementara

Tiba-tiba sahaja kau tinggalkan aku

Apakah salahku

Kau bertindak begitu hari bahgia

Diri ini masih merindui

Entah mengapa

Hatimu kian berubah

Biarku menanggung derita

Hanya untukmu kekasihku oh Nurhafezah

Mahkota cintaku di hatimu milikku sahaja

Tetapi mengapa cinta ini hanya sementara

Tiba-tiba sahaja kau tinggalkan aku

Apakah salahku

Kau bertindak begitu hari bahgia

Diri ini masih merindui

Entah mengapa

Hatimu kian berubah

Biarku menanggung derita"

~My dearest boyfrend created dis song juz for me wen i left him 3 yrs ago .. It was a vry meaningful song to him and evn though the lyrics to the songs are vry hurtful, i still appreciate dis song as it cums frm his sincere heart .. And i owaes wanted him to sing me the lyrics to dis song .. For nw it has bcum the No. 1 most favorite song in my lyf .. Thnx bie for the song .. I'll owaes wan u to sing me dis song .. I love u bie .. :')

Damn she's soo hard up wif HER TINGS! .. Nk sgt brng die kasi aje kt die .. Kalo bleh campak skali kt muke die .. Bnde nie mmg tkd kene mengene dgn life aku but still i feel u my dearest boyfrend .. Kalo part brng die mati2 hari nie jgk die nak .. Kalo tk kasi mcm2 die nk ugut .. Psl "brng" yg die kate die pnye pn nk heret2 name mahkamah .. Merepek kape tuu pmpn .. Haha .. Tkd kene mengene pn .. Msti hakim tuu pn ketawekn cz she's juz too childish .. Haha .. Is dat how a 20 yr old person who claims herself as mature shld behave? .. Dulu pndi nk ckp aku is dat hw a 19 yr old shld tink .. Skrg kene balek .. Haha .. Tuu lar .. Pndi mengate org .. Diri sendiri pn same aje .. At least aku mengaku aku ade childish part .. Drpd die .. Die fiker die mane pnye mature aje .. Haha .. Padehal fikiran cetek .. Fikiran mcm org tk berakal .. 
And skrg bile part mntk balek brng yg die pegang which belongs to my boyfrend pndi plak cuak .. Dah tuu pndi nk cover ass die and srh my boyfrend to simpan aje "brng" yang die ckp die pnye .. Haha .. Tkt kn .. Part da kene balek baru nk cuak .. Padan muke die .. haha ..

How great can my life get .. Its getter damn better and better each day .. As tym pass, no more nosy buggers out der who enjoys interfering wif my lyf .. Now evrybody seems to shut the fuck up and be gone .. Dats freaking better .. Im enjoying evry second of my lyf without having to see wad evr bullshits comments being made .. Finally they realise and undrstnd the true meaning of getting a life .. Haha .. Great  .. Now they realise dat saying all those tings to me were a waste of tym cz i dont evn bother bout wad dey say .. Haha .. Stupid assholes wasting their time and electricity and eye power to even visit my blog and even comment on it .. Hahahaha!!! ..